The Adventure of Life

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I was happily looking ahead to next year and all my children being happily in public schools for the first time ever.  I spent my mornings contemplating all the time I would have for my blogging, reading, painting, organization, etc., etc. And then it happened, a small little nagging feeling in the core of my being.  I started to think of how much I was going to miss my 5-year-old being with me throughout the day, about how much I actually enjoy our morning snuggles, our reading on the couch, our afternoon game time.  The desire to homeschool once again started to bubble in my spirit, but I pushed it back down right quick. No, I did not want to give up my time, oh all that glorious time. Visions of me relaxing on the couch reading a book filled my mind, but that feeling wouldn’t stop, it was relentless. Then it expanded that little desire became not just homeschooling our 5-year-old but our 8-year-old as well.

I had many conversations with Daddy about this desire, and what it exactly meant and looked like for our family.  I felt fear come in about this desire to homeschool, so much so I was overwhelmed.  You see the last time we homeschooled I had all four kiddos home and it was so very difficult on me and not very enjoyable for any of us.  That fear made me doubt my abilities, my sanity, my desire as being authentic.  I teetered between wanting that time all to myself and the desire to have my children home. Back and forth I felt tugged between them both.

I just keep going to Him, day after day, asking him to show me what it’s all supposed to look like.  Asking him what I truly desire, and if my desires are his desires. Asking Him to show me what is His best for our family.  I let him persuade me of His truth, that I am fully capable to carry this out.  That I can take and find the time for myself despite being with my kids 24/7.  That he will provide those moments that I desire of relaxing on the couch with a good book in spite of homeschooling. That I could have both in a sense.

He showed me that this journey of trusting him in my relationship was much the same as this journey to trust him with homeschooling.  That there needed to be a deconstruction of all that I knew about education, all those years of book learning needed to be torn down so that he could reteach me what school was to look like for our children. Much like my journey about of “religion” and into beautiful relationship with Him.

He showed me that my greatest asset is not my Master’s Degree in Education, nor my organizational skills or creativity, it is Him.  Yes, all those things are awesome and important but to have the source of all truth and wisdom is infinitely more valuable.  To be able to go to him when something with my kids learning isn’t working and say, now what?  To know that I don’t have to have all the answers because he does. The best news is we all have that same access to Him.

He showed me that sometimes the decision to homeschool isn’t just about what you will teach the child academically that year, that it can be more about what you will teach that child relationally.  What you will speak into that child identity wise, that it could be more about a season of protection and building up than it can be about imparting academic wisdom.  How closely this relates to our fathers very heart for us.

Maybe it’s simply about allowing the child to feel empowered by letting them select a topic they enjoy and just coming along for the ride.  Maybe it’s about letting the child go unrestrained into this new way of learning and not requiring them to stop for the day when the scheduled lesson is done.  Maybe it’s about knowing that some days will be spent on hours of grammar because that’s what she wants to do and the next day grammar won’t even come into play as the outdoors is calling and knowing that, that is OK.  Maybe it’s about building relationships and learning to simply trust yourself and your abilities. To learn to love learning all over again from the ground up.

Oh, how closely that can mimic where God has me at right now with Him.  His focus is on teaching me about real relationship with him and what that looks like, it’s about deconstructing the misperceptions I had and focusing me on my true identity and value. In this journey, he is protecting me and building me up day by day. He is less concerned about my “book” knowledge and more concerned about my relational knowledge.  He is empowering me in my abilities to hear and connect with Him and is allowing me to run this race unbridled and full of excitement and passion, no rules and regulations or to do lists hinder this race any longer. The chains are broken and I have been set free.

Some days this race is run full speed ahead and others days it resembles more of a slow trot, but either way he is showing me that both are perfect. He is showing me that this pace that I am on is my own and that I can trust it and Him. That it’s about learning to trust myself, and to trust who He is showing me that I am.  I am learning to love this glorious adventure and I am somewhat sure I will also enjoy this new season of going back into homeschooling.  One thing for sure is it’s a glorious adventure and I have the best teacher right here inside of me.

You are Enough

The view of God is the only truth about you.

Being a woman is hard. Being a woman who is trying to fit into the norms of society is impossible.

It’s no wonder that so many women today are utterly exhausted, discouraged, depressed, and hopeless.  The world screams at us, all that we should be, should do, should look like. Painting the picture of a perfect mom, wife, woman, all the while giving us conflicting messages as to what exactly that entails. We often see contradicting views, confusing right?  Which one is right? Which one is best?  We all want to be the best us, the best wife, the best mom but what does that look like? How do we get there?

Maybe you are like me, at times insecure in my own ability to be a good wife, a good mom, a good friend.  I mean none of these things come with a step by step instruction guide. Maybe there are times where the tears flow more than the joy, where situations arise with a child that you have no idea how to parent through and inadequacy tries to creep in.  Maybe there have been times when you have allowed someone’s negative perception of you to make you feel not enough, ugly, less than.   Maybe you have been rejected, abandon, left behind and you believe that it has a direct connotation to your true worth.

It could have been as simple as a disapproving look in the grocery store as your child is having a code red meltdown and you football carry him out the front door leaving the groceries behind amidst the judging glares. Maybe it was a phone call from your husband telling you that once again he needs to go on a business trip and you feel the panic of having to single parent for a week rise up.  (All you single parents out there I give you much respect and honor, you are amazing.) How about going out in public with all of your kids in the middle of the day because you homeschool? Ever got the questions with that one?  “Why aren’t you in school?” “Vacation already?” “You are what, can you do that?” Maybe it was just a disapproving glance in the mirror when looking for a new swim suite to accommodate your changing body that you no longer recognize. Maybe it was having to put n/a on an application under job.

This world is great at judging you on with their ever-changing unrealistic expectations. Pinterest, Facebook, and most of the TV Shows and Magazines fully reinforce those very things.  We are bombarded daily with all that we should be and many of us unwillingly take it on as to what should be our norm, believing the lies spewed forth. We ourselves are pretty great at judging ourselves too, and we are usually way harsher than anyone else. We judge our appearance, our job performance, our family, our friendships, our homes, and our bank accounts, the list goes on and on.

However, this is not how it was ever meant to be.  This is not the life that our Father, God, ever intended for us.  This is not the easy yoke he speaks of, or the rest that we are called to enjoy. Through His only son Jesus, he came to show us the very truth about who we are.  To speak light into the darkness of our understanding of how amazing we are. He came to redeem our true identities and to show us our mirror image, Him.  He came to give us the eyes to see and to tear the veil on the very distortion this world tried to put on our shoulders. He came to destroy our false idols of our mistaken identities.

Beautiful daughter, you are more than enough.  The only truth of who you are is not found in the worlds perception but in Christ alone.  We do not have to fit into the mold, in fact you were created not to.  You are unique, his masterpiece, one of a kind, and totally glorious. You do not need to be anything, because you already are all that you ever need to be.  You do not need to be a certain size, a certain color, a certain occupation, a certain station, you are more than enough, worthy of love, affection and intimacy.

Letting go of believing the lies of the world as your truth can be hard, as they are everywhere, every day, screaming at us.  But there is one who is constantly pursuing you, tenderly, lovingly, reminding you that those things are not who you are.  That only He, the creator of your being knows you, the real you.

He knows that your sensory seeking kiddo got overwhelmed by all the stimulation at the grocery store and lost it.  He knows that the countless hours you have spent researching his disorder, loving, encouraging and driving that kiddo to appointment after appointment.  He sees you advocate for your children and sees your heart of love for them, his heart in you for them. He knows you, the world does not.

He knows how difficult it is for you to get your four children where they need to be by yourself, he knows the anxiety you feel when you know there will be no relief coming and you have to do it alone. He understands the fear that tries to overcome you, because he sees your past and knows the root.  He knows you, the world does not.

He knows the reason you had to homeschool was because your children were so relentlessly bullied that it was becoming unsafe for them. He sees that you had to get out of the house just to be around other people or you were going to go crazy. He also knows that your children are fully educated and above in many areas.  He knows you, the world does not.

He sees that beautiful body of yours, all Size 14 of it, that lovingly carried 6 children but birthed 4.  He sees those stretch marks of battle, the extra weight, the sagging breasts of this amazing body he created.  He sees you, the real you and the fullness of your beauty. He knows you, the world does not.

He sees the enormity of your job as a stay at home mom.  He sees the sacrifices you made letting go of your own career goals to raise these little gifts. He sees you ease the burden on your husband by just being at home.  He sees this smart, intelligent woman, holding the college degree changing yet another diaper. He sees the countless loads of laundry, the boo boo’s you kiss, the love you give. He knows you, the world does not.

Oh, that we would allow the one who knows us best to be the only defining voice in our lives.  Not the world, not our spouse, not even ourselves but Him and Him alone.

Daddy I pray for each woman today that reads this post I pray for women everywhere that struggle and strive to see themselves as beautiful, worthy, enough.  I pray that you would continue to show each of us the truth of who you created us to be.  I pray that not only would you reveal that to us but that you would help us to believe it.  I pray that we would be able to let go of the lies that we tell ourselves and the lies of the world, let go of the judgement and condemnation and simply rest in who you say we are.  I pray that when we look in the mirror we see the glory of who we are and nothing else, that we see nothing but our true selves as you have always intended.  In Jesus name. Amen.

Love-Agape

What it is and what it isn't.

I have been really seeking to know God more in my life, to know the one who is my friend and Abba.  Today he drew me back to the Love (Agape) verse and said look at both sides of this coin today and you will better see me.  So below you will find my chart of what Agape love looks like and what it is not.  I used the Greek definitions and also used a thesaurus for the opposites of the words given in the verse.

One thing that I realized is that some of the words that described what it is not were attributes that I was still believing about Abba. This was such a beautiful moment of Daddy showing me lies that I was believing about who he was.  It was a beautiful answer to my desire to know Him more. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did.

I Corinthians 13:4 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful;[a] it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

 

Love is: Love is not:
Patient: long-tempered, refusing to retaliate with anger Agitated: violent, frustrated, intolerant, unwilling, loud
Kind: gentle, pleasant, good Unkind: Quick to anger, harsh, antagonistic, discourteous, rude
Not jealous/envious: calm, content, undoubting, confident, trusting, unresentful Jealous: envy (rivalry, spite, malice, resentment), covet
Not boasting: humble, modest Boastful: show off, brag, exaggerate, blow one’s own horn
Not arrogant: humble, modest, meek Arrogant: aloof, bossy, smug, assuming, haughty
Does not act unbecomingly: humble, kind Unbecomingly-arrogant, bossy, cocky, pompous, vain, disdainful, know it all
Does not seek its own-doesn’t seek himself/herself, considers others, takes the time to see them Seek its own: Self-centered (egotistical, selfish, self-absorbed), self-seeking (boasting, bragging, egocentric)
Is unprovoked Provoked: incensed, aggravated, enraged, irritated, angry, mad
Does not take into account a wrong: does not charge with a wrong, does not conclude a wrong, sees the truth in the person Judges, charges with wrongs, concludes wrongs, refuses to see the truth in the person
Does not rejoice in unrighteousness: the opposite of justice, Rejoices in injustice
Rejoices with the truth: reality Does not rejoice with the truth, God’s reality
Bears all things: cover, conceal endure patiently, to carry, transfer, take Doesn’t bear: fail, lose, avoid, refuse
Believes all things: have faith in, trust, accept, consider, regard, trust, understand Doesn’t believe: abandon, deny, discard, dismiss, disregard, forget, neglect, ignore, reject
Hopes all things: believes, assumes, cherish, expect, confide Doesn’t Hope: abandon, distrust, doubt, forsake, fear
Endures all things: remain behind (as if standing with you), stand my ground (standing with the other), bears hardship, withstands, weathers Doesn’t endure: disallow, halt, hide, refuse, reject, run away, deny

 

Many times, in religion we are told that we ourselves are responsible for producing this type of love for others in our lives.  That brothers and sisters is an impossible feat.  None of us in our own will power or strength can manifest this type of love in our lives.  This type of love is a gift from Daddy to us.  It is a gift of His Spirit that lives inside of us.  (Galatians 5:22) It is not something that we bring forth by self-effort and works, it is simply something we believe and receive. It is in that receiving, his love can overflow out of us onto those around us.  We love because He first loved us, but we have to understand and experience first hand what Daddy’s love really is, what it really looks like, feels like, tastes like in our own lives. We have to be willing to receive this beautiful gift from Him alone and to be able to do that we have to believe we are worthy of His love.

If your love for others doesn’t look like what we saw above be of good cheer, all we have to do is believe and receive, to allow ourselves to be loved by our good father and out of that we will see the fruit of His Spirit manifesting itself effortlessly out of us.  We never were called to create the fruit simply to bear it. He is the vine, we are the branches, his love flows into us and out of that relationship we bear His fruit. If you struggle to believe you are worthy of such a love as this, ask Daddy to persuade you of the truth.  Ask Him to show you just how worthy he sees you, then be open to what he has to say.  Even if you can’t believe it yet, he is a great persuader and it is his joy to persuade you until you can believe.

Daddy I thank you for each and every person who will read this post about you.  I pray that you will give them a new perspective on how they view you.  I pray that any misperception of who you are will be highlighted and you will reveal the truth of who you are to them, that it will resonate with Your Spirit in them. Amen.

Praise vs. Thanks

How it Relates to Worship

This topic is one that I have studied about a week ago. I was planning on doing it right after the one that I did on Worship. In between that, God had me not. I was fully prepared one day to talk about praise and thanksgiving and worship and how it all fits. God stopped me that day and told me to do something on Mommy Guilt, so I did that instead. I was mowing the lawn today and all of a sudden the Lord said, “Today is the day that we are going to talk about praise where you looked at that before.”

So, today we are going to be looking at praise and thanksgiving it is kind of  the second message in this series. The first that we did in the series of worship, and I have the feeling there’s going to be three talking about worship. I talked about that a little bit in the message before this one. I will kind of  recap here in a minute what we talked about. Then I feel that probably after this one, we will be talking about thanksgiving and what that looks like and thanks because I just touch on it a little bit here, the difference between what praise and thanksgiving is and what that looks like in our lives.

Praise is really what flows out of worship and we have to understand what worship really means to be able to understand praise. I would encourage you, if you haven’t seen my video on worship or read the transcript, to go back and listen to or read that. It’s only about 15 or 20 minutes and it just goes into a little more depth and background and documentation of the true meaning of worship. What that basically stated was that worship is recognizing and believing the truth of who Daddy is. It’s our spirit acknowledging its true heritage in knowing whose we are and knowing and receiving His life and His goodness and His grace and His truth as was shown to us by Jesus. I went into that a little bit more on my previous video but that’s really what worship is. Worship is recognizing and believing the truth of who Daddy is. It’s your spirit acknowledging its true heritage and knowing whose you are and knowing and receiving His life which He came to give us – His goodness, His grace and  truth as we can see in Jesus.

When we think about praise, we also can get that confused with thanksgiving or thanks. Thanks is actually different than praise. Thanks says, “I thank You” or “Thanks”. Whether you express it or not you are actually the subject of the verb in thanks.  Whereas in praise, the object of praise is the subject of the sentence. It would be God so He would be the subject of the sentence. It would be like, “He rescued me” or “He forgave all my sins.” We are not the object of that sentence therefore it is praise and not thanksgiving. There is a difference.

If we look at Ephesians 1:3, we can see that this is actually an example of praise and thanksgiving in one verse. It says, Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with all spiritual blessings in the heavenly places in Christ.”

Praise is what was first there because it acknowledged God, or the acknowledgment went to God who was the subject: Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ… That’s an example of praise.

Thanksgiving is what we see secondly in the sentence as the focus turns to the speaker.:  who has blessed us (Now the focus is on us) with all spiritual blessings in the heavenly places in Christ.”

Praise focuses on God and who He is. Thanksgiving focuses on what God has done for us. That is the difference between praise and thanksgiving.

Hebrews 13:15 Through him therefore let us continually offer to God a sacrifice of praise, that is, the fruit of lips that give thanks to his name. (Fruit here is the Greek word, karpos. It means everything that is done in true partnership with Christ. That’s what it is talking about here. So it is saying, “Through Him, through Jesus, let us continually (an account of or because of ) offer to God a sacrifice of praise that is the fruit, or the partnership with Jesus, of lips that give thanks. Thanks here means to speak the same thing or to agree. It is actually the same word as confess. When we think about “confess your sins, it means to speak the same as. So that is the fruit of the lips that give thanks or speak the same as, or  agree.)  to his name.

Through Jesus and not of our own effort or strength, but out of the overflow of worship, flows praise. It flows through Jesus of our knowing who He is and who we are and what He has done for us.  The word, fruit, here is actually the same word that is used in the verse, fruit of the Spirit. It’s also the same word that is used as, “I am the vine and you are the branches. Whoever abides in Me  produces much fruit.” That is the same word that we are talking about here in Hebrews 13:15. Fruit as everything done in true partnership with Christ.

Sacrifice is an offering. It’s a praise offering even when the world’s view looks bad… like things look bad through the worldly view, we can worship and praise because we are agreeing with Daddy, the truth about the situation. We are seeing it through His perspective and not our perspective. So even when we are going through a difficult situation, we can see it through Daddy’s eyes and we can give praise and worship and thanks because of the fruit of the Spirit that comes forth effortlessly out of us because Jesus lives in us and we don’t have to let the worldly perspective steal that away from us. We can trust in Him in what He is doing in our lives and what He showed us He did for us through Jesus.

I thought this was interesting: In the Old Testament, the sacrifice of praise would mean that a worshiper would bring a sacrifice which would be placed on the altar to be cooked for a communal meal, a meal they would all eat together. While the animal was being cooked, the worshiper, the one who provided it, would stand beside the altar and proclaim the praise to God. This would be the reason why everyone would eat from this sacrifice because they would recognize that God had done something for the worshiper because of the offering that they offered. They would then all eat the meal together because they saw that God had done something so they ate and gave thanks because the worshiper had been changed.

In the New Testament, Jesus was our sacrifice of praise. He placed Himself on the altar and told us to eat of His flesh. Those who eat from the flesh, understand as God had done something in them, changing their hearts and minds. It just reminded me of how many disciples He lost when He made that comment that said, “If you would eat of My flesh and drink of My blood!” they looked at Him as, “What are You talking about! There is not any way…” They thought He had gone off the deep end!

That’s just what He was showing me is that those of us who understand what that truly means to eat of His body and drink of His blood, are participating in what we know as Communion but  we are also participating in this praise offering because He offered Himself for us. It just kind of blew me away because as we are partaking in that, we are realizing and we are seeing that He has changed us. We are in agreement with, “Yes, Lord! You have changed us. You have changed my thinking. You have changed my mind.” I just thought that was really interesting. He also led me to 1 Peter.

1Peter 2:9 But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, an holy nation, a peculiar people; that we should show forth the praises of him who has called you out of darkness into his marvelous light;

“…that we should show forth the praises of him “ I thought that was interesting because the praise, remember, the subject is Him. So how do we show forth the praises of Him? The Lord just really spoke to my heart and He said that we are the praises of God! That we are the walking examples of God’s excellency and goodness. We are that living example showing forth the praises, or the excellencies, of Him who has called us out of darkness and into His light. I thought that was awesome to think of how He views us! I mean how can you not praise and thank and worship Him when He is so in love with us! That He sees us as His praise! I can just picture how we brag on our kids when they do something awesome. The thing I am thinking of right now is my daughter went to get her own Youtube channel to do broadcasting because she is really into Minecraft and she wants to start doing videos. Originally we told her, “No.” Then she put her mind to it and decided that she was going to write a proposal and present it to us about the reasons why we should let her, and educationally the benefit from that and how it benefits the family and how it benefits her. So right now I am praising my daughter. I am praising her for her awesomeness in coming up with something like that. God is saying, “That’s what I do to you!”

I can just hear Him turning to Jesus and saying, “Did you see what she did today? Isn’t that awesome! She is so awesome! I am so in love with her!” To even think that He would say that about us… like He is that proud of us that He sees us as His praise and He sings our praises because He loves us! In turn, it just blows my mind! How could I not praise Him! How could I not see how amazingly awesome He is

and just speak forth out of that revelation of His goodness, the truth of who He is! Just for praise, like  “God, You are amazing! God, You are awesome! You can do anything!” I could just go on and on! That’s praise. Thanksgiving is, “Lord, thank You that You love me! Lord, thank You that You took care of me today. Lord, thank You that You help me show others the truth of who they are and who I am!” Do you know what I mean… it just flows naturally out of worship.

Remember, worship is recognizing and believing the truth of who God is. It’s basically your spirit acknowledging its true heritage and knowing whose you are and knowing and receiving His life, goodness, grace and truth. That’s what that is. Praise God is the object of our praise and it flows out of us, effortlessly, because of the worship… we recognize and believe the truth. And out of the praise comes thanksgiving where we thank Him for everything that He has done. Amen! That’s what I have to say about that.

Lord, I just thank You that You are the object of our praise. I thank You that through worshiping You, through understanding, knowing and joining with You that not only does praise flow out of us as a fruit but from that praise, we give thanksgiving. I just thank You Lord! You are awesome! You are amazing! I just thank You that You continue to reveal more and more to us each and every day… in Jesus’ name!

 

What is Worship

I just wanted to talk to you a little bit of what the Lord placed on my heart this morning, when I was walking the dog. He talked about what worship means and about what true worship looks like because He was taking me to John 4:23. But the hour is coming, and now here, when the true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father is seeking such people to worship him.

I was just thinking about what worship means because when we were under the Law, what I believed worship was something we did on Sunday before the sermon. We listened to the music and sang to the Lord and raised our hands and just really sang out to Him. In my mind, that was what worship was. Then I started to study it a little bit more for an  event that I went on. I actually read a book on worship and it was very interesting. This was all stuff that I had done while I was still not understanding Grace and the love of our Father towards me. So this morning I really just wanted to understand what worship meant. As I was walking and listening to some music, I asked the Lord, “Lord, what does it mean to worship You? What does that word, worship, really mean?” Do you know what He said? He just  told me that worship is recognizing and believing the truth of who He is. I was like,“Wow, Lord! It’s that simple? It’s just recognizing and believing the truth of who You are?” As I was walking, I had my phone and started to google different verses because I want to know if this is really true. I wanted to see the biblical backup to it, not that I don’t believe what He told me or what I heard. He went on and said, “Your spirit is acknowledging your true heritage. It’s knowing whose we are and receiving His love and goodness and grace and truth as Jesus showed us when He came.” I thought, “Wow! That’s what worship is?”

As I’m walking and typing in a search for verses, He takes me to John 4:23 But the hour is coming, and now here, when the true worshippers will worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father is seeking such people to worship him.

I was thinking, “Hmmm… What is a true worshiper, Lord?” because He said that the hour is coming and is now here, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and in truth: for the Father is seeking such people to worship Him. I looked up the word, true, and it emphasizes an organic connection or authentic unity. That’s what that word means. It’s authentic unity between what  is true in its source or origin. So it is really the unity between us, our original design, and God. It refers to what is essentially true, connecting visible facts to its underlining reality. This is all from Strongs and the Word Concordance. It emphasizes the integrity of what is true down to its inner makeup. It’s the reality of what is true inside and out. So, “true”, is the reality of who we are. True worshipers get their identity, they get who they are and who God is, and only then can we really worship the Father in Spirit and in Truth, because in the Greek, “Truth” means reality. I thought that was super interesting.

To worship in Spirit and in Truth, is to recognize the reality of who we really are and that is what He is calling us to do. I’m thinking, “Okay, if we look back at that verse, But the hour is coming, and now here, when the true worshipers (those who truly know who they are, who see the integrity of what is true down into their inner makeup… that’s the definition of “true”) will worship the Father in spirit and in truth I am like, okay, we are going to worship Him in Spirit and in truth. How do we do that?  What then is spiritual worship if we worship Him in truth that means we worship Him with understanding that inner makeup of who we truly are. So then what is spiritual worship as it is talking about there?

Romans 12:1-2  I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.

When I was under the Law, I was believing that verse meant that I needed to present my physical body to Him as a sacrifice that whatever He wanted me to do, that I would do it. I was there to serve Him. I was His servant to do whatever He asked. The Lord is really breaking down that verse for me and showing me that as a daughter and as a son, it has a different perspective when we look at it from our true identity of who we are, than what I originally believed when I thought that my main role was as a servant to the Lord and that was what He created me for, is not the truth! He created me for intimate fellowship with Him, with the Trinity!

That verse says, I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice… The word, present, here means to come up close beside; to stand close beside. So we are supposed to stand close beside Him with our bodies. We don’t need to run away like Adam and Eve did! He is saying, “Present your body, come up close beside, as a living sacrifice.” The word, living, is from the word, Zoe, which is God life. It is to experience God’s gift of life. We can’t stand close beside God if we believe that we are not holy or worthy to. We just can’t do it. If we believe that we still have to earn His approval, we are not going to feel confident and comfortable standing close beside Him, next to Him, on the same level as Him. Servants would never do that! They wouldn’t stand, next to, close beside and shoulder to shoulder with their masters.

He is saying that we need to come, stand close beside Him with our bodies, to present our bodies as a living a Zoe life, a God life, sacrifice.  “…holy (holy means the likeness of nature with the Lord, set apart) and acceptable to God…  (It means to stand by God and agree with His view of us, that we can and are experiencing God’s gift of life, His very Zoe life, and that we are set apart and holy, just as Jesus. That we sacrifice our own works to try to make ourselves like God and simply believe that we are already like Him because of Jesus. That is what that verse is saying. Let me read it one more time. “That we are to stand close beside God in agreement with His view of us that we are and can experience Zoe life, God’s gift of life, and that we are set apart and holy just as Jesus. That we sacrifice our own works to try to make ourselves like God and simply believe that we are already like Him because of Jesus.”

That same verse in Romans goes on in verse 2 to say, And be not conformed to this world: but be transformed by the renewing of your mind He is saying, “Listen to what the world is saying that you are because you are not going to be able to stand beside Me, shoulder to shoulder and experience My life if you are not seeing yourself the way that I see you.” So He is encouraging us for that renewal of the mind, that mind change, that metanoia, that repentance, that change of mind that only He can bring about. That is what they are talking about there. It says, the renewal of our mind, the changing of our mind by Daddy’s truth is what allows us to be true worshipers. When we can see ourselves as He does and believe that, we can confidently approach Him as sons and daughters.

He was just showing me that what I used to believe isn’t the truth. Worship isn’t begging God to do something. Worship isn’t convincing Him that we are worthy to be loved and to be blessed. It isn’t a sacrifice to prove ourselves acceptable to Him.  He doesn’t need those things from us. That is not what He is calling us to do when He’s calling us to worship. We are already all of those things to Him. So if we are worshiping to try to convince Him that we are worthy, try to show Him that we are worthy to be blessed or that we are trying to prove ourselves to be acceptable, we are not truly worshiping Him.

To truly worship Him would be to stand beside Him in agreement, shoulder to shoulder, and say, “I am who You say I am.” That’s what it means when it is talking about the true worshipers worshiping Him in Spirit and in truth. Our spirit resonates with the truth that He speaks to us and we stand and say, “Yes, that is true!” Out of that acknowledgment of our true identity, our true heritage of knowing who we are and receiving His love, comes worship, effortlessly, effortlessly flowing out of us. It’s that worship that effortlessly flows out of us because of the fact that we realize the goodness of the true Gospel. We realize the goodness of Daddy’s heart towards us.

True worship flows out of that acknowledgment of our true identity is in Him. Worship in many verses means to kiss. To kiss someone you are usually intimate with them. You don’t just go up and kiss a stranger.  I was thinking about that because if I am thinking about it as a parent/child relationship, how do you kiss your child? How does your child kiss you? Do we make our child bend down on their knee and we present our hand to them and we have them kiss our hand? No! We would never do that! I’m not going to have my kids bow down before me and bend down to kiss my hand. I don’t think you do that! I wouldn’t want anybody to do that but that’s kind of how I had viewed that type of intimacy with Him. That He would hold out His hand and I would kneel before Him and I would kiss His hand, kneeling, bowing down before Him. It was out of a servant mentality.

He is just showing me that game that we play with our kids. We call it “Mooch Land.” It’s where, when putting them to bed, we say, “We are going to take you to Mooch Land! And they squeal and we catch them and kiss them all over. He said, “Julie, that’s the intimacy that we have together. You kiss Me and I kiss you back because it’s that parent/child, bride/bridegroom relationship.” I had never thought about it that way. Like how I kiss my son’s little face all over, Daddy does that to me. He kisses my little face all over just as much as I kiss Him, He kisses me right back. I had never thought about that. It is like I just saw that when we are true worshipers, not only do we long and desire to kiss Him, because we recognize and receive His amazing love for us, but He kisses us, all the more, right back because He is so enthralled by us!  He is so excited that we are seeing the truth of who we are and we are living and walking in His Zoe life which is what He has always intended for us. He gets excited about that!

So He was just showing me some other scriptures that show how when we identify and understand who He truly is, that we can’t help but worship Him. Sometimes we may bow down in total awe of Him but not because we are putting on a show, not because we are performing, not because we feel that we have to, but it is because we are so overwhelmed by His love. We are so overtaken by His love for us that we can’t help it! It’s like we can’t do anything but that!

He showed me some verses in the Bible where people did that.

Matthew 2:11 The Magi bowed down and worshiped Him because they realized the true identity of who Jesus was. They worshiped the Babe because they knew,  they saw the truth of, who He was.

Matthew 21:9 and John 12:13, their hearts are crying out, “Hosanna, Hosanna!” That’s an expression of  adoration. That’s because they realized who Jesus was. They realized who Jesus really was and so they were shouting out that worship because they recognized who He was.

Matthew 14:33 He said that those who were in the boat worshiped Him saying, “Truly, You are the Son of God!” They saw Him for who He truly was.

Matthew 28:9 When they realized that it was Him, they came to Him and clasped His feet and worshiped Him.

Worship is really a state of our spirit that we have to know God, that we have to know the truth of what a good God He is. It’s basically a response that flows out of us effortlessly to knowing the truth in our spirit. It should be something that is effortless that it flows out of us naturally. It should never have to be forced. It should never be anything that we put on our “To Do” list, our “Check Off” list or we feel obligated because everybody around us is doing it. That does not honor Him. That doesn’t look anything like what He wants us to do.  He wants us to simply stand shoulder to shoulder, next to Him, and experience His Zoe life and realize the truth of who we are.

I want to just go back to the beginning where we started from the definition He gave me this morning: Worship is recognizing and believing the truth of who He is. It’s our spirit acknowledging our true heritage.  It’s knowing who we are and knowing and  receiving His love, His goodness and grace and truth, as He showed us.  And out of that, worship will flow effortlessly.

I just pray that blessed you and you that you  have a great day. I thank you for watching and I am just going to pray over you because I feel led. “Lord, I just thank You for every single person who will hear this message. I pray that you will reveal more and more as to what true worshipers really look like, as to what  worship You truly desire from us.

Lord, I pray that You would show us our unique ways which You created for us to worship You. I thank You, Lord, that we are each different. We each have our own special, unique talents and giftings and callings, Lord.

I just feel that He just wants to encourage you to ask Him to show you what worship looks like for you. I just believe He wants to show you because He loves you that much! I also believe that He wants to go to Smooch Land with you and to kiss your face all over and for you to know that you are worthy of that love, that type of love, that Fatherly love… unconditionally.

Sabbath Rest

Elohim is our Sabbath

Psalm 46:10 Be still and know that I am God

Cease in the Greek is

Raphah (raw-faw) sink back in; relax; become helpless; let go, abate, to slacken

from the root rapha-heal, cure, cause to heal, repair, make whole, to mend (stitch by stitch)

Cease in Websters is defined as to stop doing

Know in the greek is Yada-to know, discern, have knowledge, perceive, be aware

Cease and know that I am God

Sink back and allow me to mend you stitch by stick and be aware of the truth of who I am.

Hebrews 4:9 So there remains a Sabbath rest for the people of God.10 For whoever enters God’s rest also rests from his own work, just as God did from His.

Remains=to leave behind, (passively remain)

Sabbath: the blessed rest from toils and troubles, the repose (state of rest, tranquility, staying in a particular place of Christianity (as a type of heaven)

Jesus left behind a rest so that we could rest from toils and troubles forever so that we could stay in his lap in this amazing state of rest.

John 4:38 I sent you to reap that for which you did not labor. Others have labored, and you have entered into their labor.”

Reap in Websters is defined as: to get (something, such as a reward) as a result of something that you have done, to cut and collect (a plant, crop, etc.) from a field

We collect our reward in which we did not toil or labor but Jesus did for us.  We can collect our fruit because of his spirit in us.   We cut down the lies of our false identities when we rest in who he says we are and who he says he is and walk in the belief of that.

Let’s go back to Hebrews 4: 9,10 and look at verse 10.

V 10 For the one who has entered His rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from His.

Look at the first His it is capitalized signifying that we have entered into God’s rest. When we are in His rest we can

Photo Credit to Idy Stemaly

Photo Credit to Idy Stemaly

therefore also rest from our own works.

Works here is ergon (er’-gon) which means labor, doing it is from the root word ergo which means to work, toil, labor.  Sound familiar? Look back at the definition of Sabbath.

Sabbath: the blessed rest from toils and troubles, a state of rest or tranquility, to be kept in a particular place.

Praise God that the work is done we are righteous in his sight, and we can rest in His finished work.

Genesis 2:2-3 By the seventh day God had finished the work he had been doing; so on the seventh day he rested from all his work. 3 Then God blessed the seventh day and made it holy, because on it he rested from all the work of creating that he had done.

Elohim is our Sabbath, he declared us very good and then he rested. Jesus came to remind us of our original design, that which included Sabbath rest forever.

I pray today that we can fully receive and rest in his glorious rest of the truth of who we were always created to be.

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Rejoice!

The Joy of the Lord is our Strength

There are some days in this crazy life that I seem to need more strength, to desire more joy, to long for more peace.  If I could manifest it myself by speaking it forth with my words, or believing harder, or doing more you darn well better believe it would be happening, I’ve tried. But alas, that isn’t my job it’s Daddy’s, praise God for that.  So instead of trying to recite things over and over, or striving to manifest the fruit of the spirit in my own strength, I simply go to Daddy. I crawl up into his lap, snuggle in, and spill my heart to the one who knows me best.  Speaking to Daddy, telling him our desires, our needs our wishes for our lives is the very definition of one of the words used for prayer, the greek word proseuchomai.

This word means towards, exchange/ to wish, pray.  When I speak to Daddy throughout my day (aka pray) I’m exchanging my needs, my anxieties, my desires, my wishes with him. Some may say that I don’t believe enough if I have to go to him and ask him to help me and I say even Jesus prayed to daddy.  What am I exchanging my needs, anxieties, desires and wishes for there in his lap? I’m exchanging them for the confident expectation that he who began the good work in13510934_10154273703056649_2622201700011040852_n me will also finish it.  I’m exchanging my heaviness with his truths.  I’m giving it to him and trusting him with it all. I’m allowing him to speak truth into the deepest places of my heart that are so desperately longing for them.  I am allowing him to love me in every way shape and form and from there everything else fades away.  In the arms of my loving Daddy I am safe, secure, comforted, and loved. That my friends is what prayer should be.

I’ve heard so often that the message of Grace is a message to allow those who are weak to get away with sin. That is not what it is, “It is God fulfilling a promise to us of us sharing in his life with him. Adam believed he could attain that by his own works, people still under the law believe that Daddy’s life is only manifested because of their good works.” Bertie Brits

Many people said the same thing about Jesus, they felt he was getting away with sin.

The Son of Man has come eating and drinking, and you say, ‘Look at him! A glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners!’ Luke 7:34

At that time, John’s disciples came to Jesus and asked, “Why is it that we and the Pharisees fast so often, but Your disciples do not fast?” 15Jesus replied, “How can the attendants of the bridegroom mourn while He is with them? But the time will come when the bridegroom will be taken away from them; then they will fast. Matthew 9:15

What Jesus was doing looked like disobedience to the Pharisees who like those under law feel that their behavior is what earns them things with Daddy. But that is not what Daddy says, daddy says Jesus did it all, there is nothing left but for us to believe.

For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking but of righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit. Romans 14:17

Fruit of the flesh, is the fruit of the belief of works, you believe that you yourself like Adam did can bring forth Daddy’s life in you by your own hands.

The Fruit of the spirit is God’s spirit manifesting those things in us.  We don’t chase after the fruit, we chase after the spirit.  When I curl up in my papas lap and allow myself to be loved by him and talk with him I am chasing after him.

Joy is part of the fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22) How do we get more joy? Do we try harder, confess it out loud more? No, we simply continue to allow Daddy to love us, we chase after our Papa, because he is chasing after us.

Hebrews 12:2 2 looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.

John 15:9 -10- As the Father has loved me, jso have I loved you. Abide in my love. 10 kIf you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as lI have kept mmy Father’s commandments and abide in his love. 11 These things I have spoken to you, nthat my joy may be in you, and that oyour joy may be full.

12 p“This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13

We cannot love as he is talking here, agape God love, in our own strength or effort. We can only love others as Jesus does if we first are able to receive his love, when we are so filled with his love it effortlessly overflows out of us onto those around us.  It is not something we have to try to do it just happens because we are so filled with him we can’t contain it all. He is calling us to remain in his love, to not again believe that we need to earn his love that we need to prove ourselves worthy of our love that we can simply abide in it because we are loved by him unconditionally, now and forever just as it was in the beginning. Our only work that Jesus spoke of while on earth was to believe. Out of the believing comes the abiding.  When we believe he abides in us we effortlessly abide in him.  He’s always been there we just didn’t believe it. He wants us to be filled with joy that he has always loved us, he is calling us to stay in that love just as he did on earth.  He never forgot who he was, loved by Daddy. We live by Jesus Faith his joy is in us and he wants our joy to be full.  This happens when we fully believe and realize who we our and receive our Daddy’s love for us.

These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full. John 15:11

Until now you have asked nothing in my name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full. John 16:24

I pray that we ask Daddy to reveal to us the joy that is ours through our intimate relationship with him.  That he would uncover any lies that we are believing that are keeping us from living in that very life of joy. I pray that today we would rejoice in the Lord, as he continues to reveal his goodness and love.  As we begin to walk deeper in his glory (Good opinion of us).

The word Rejoice in the greek is Chairo. It is from the root words Xar and Xaris.

The root Xar means “favorably disposed, leaning towards” and the root Xaris mean “Grace,” literally to experience God’s grace and to be conscious for His grace. How awesome is that? Rejoice means leaning towards Daddy to experience his Grace.

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Photo Credit Idy Stemaly

Phil 4:4-8

4Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! 5Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. 6Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer (Proceuche-remember this from above) and supplication (heart felt petition arising out of a deep personal need) with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.

Lean towards Daddy to experience his Grace always, again I will say, lean in and experiences his grace. Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by Exchanging/wishing and with heart felt petition out of what you need with thankfulness let your requests be made know to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, Brothers and Sisters whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.

Daddy wants us to dwell on his good opinion of us his glory he lead us out of the glory of works into the glory of Jesus.  He wants us to lean into him and tell him about all of our doubts, fears, wishes, desires and he will exchange them with his truths. He wants us to see just how amazing he is and how amazing we are so that out of our spirit effortlessly flows the fruit. Works come out of the fruit, please don’t hear me say that works are not evident but there is a difference.  One form is done by self-discipline, obedience, obligation, or even, guilt that is not the works he was talking about.  The other flows out of us effortlessly when we realize what a good Daddy we have we can’t help ourselves but to spread the news and love as he has those in our path. Blessings!

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God Was Always With Us

This morning I was just listening to a song by Jason Grey: I will find a Way and I was asking God about what the song meant because it was speaking to my spirit.  Daddy said Julie, I have always been in you.  From the moment that I formed you in your mother’s womb I was with you. We have never been separated. I said Daddy how can this be, surely this can’t be right, I was full of sin.  He then went forth and began to explain and bring verse upon verse to light for me showing me that he has always been with me it was merely my own unbelief that kept me from seeing it.  Below is my study that follows out of this conversation with my Abba. This was such a huge breakthrough in my life I pray it will be for you also.

What is our true identity and genesis? Genesis is our origin, creation and beginning.  How did Daddy create us from the beginning?

Genesis 1:26- Then God (Elohim-Father, Son and Holy Spirit) said, “Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness;

Genesis 1:27- So God Created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. God blessed them, and God said to the, “Be fruitful and multiply and fill the earth and subdue it….

Genesis 5:2-This is the book of the generations of Adam. In the day when God created man, He made him in the likeness of God. 2He created them male and female, and He blessed them and named them Man in the day when they were created.

Image: An optical counterpart or appearance of an object, as is produced by a reflection from a mirror, a physical likeness or representation of a person

Likeness:  A person or thing that is like or the match or counterpart of another (Similitude)

Elohim (the trinity) made us from the very beginning in his image, as his optical counterpart, in his physical likeness. From the very beginning he was in us and we were in him counterparts in this beautiful love relationship, as we can see with Adam and Eve.

When did he choose us as his own?

Galatians 1:15-16 But when he who had set me apart before I was born, and who called me by his grace, was pleased to reveal his Son to me

Ephesians 1:3-4 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him.

Before the creation of the world he chose us to Be holy and blameless

He chose us for himself before the creation of the world, this phrase only applies elsewhere to eternal communion of the son with the father. That is what it is saying to us here, we have that same communion with the trinity.

So why Did I not see it or know it?

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Photo Credit: Idy Steamily

Genesis 2:16-17 16 And the Lord God commanded the man, saying, “You may surely eat of every tree of the garden, 17 but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat4 of it you shall surely die.”

How did we die?

We were no longer able to freely believe and receive God’s Zoë life for us because of our shame, we felt that we were alienated and separated. But the truth is we were not.

Col 1:21-22 And although you were formerly alienated and hostile in mind, [engaged] in evil deeds, yet He has now reconciled you in His fleshly body through death, in order to present you before Him holy and blameless and beyond reproach–

My interpretation: Once you were a non-participant (of God’s life) and an enemy in your own mind, engaged in toilsome deeds, yet now he has reconciled (changed from one state of mind to another) in His Fleshly body through death, in order to present you before Him Holy and blameless and beyond reproach (Not to be called to account)

Paul Say’s “We have this treasure in earthen vessels. (2 Cor 4:7 RSV).

Our own unbelief veiled our minds to keep us from recognizing the image of God revealed in Christ as the authentic reflection of our original identity (2 Cor 4:4)

We didn’t believe the truth about who we were, the truth of our original genesis had been veiled.

Jesus came to remove the veil and show us our true identities.

Romans 6:4
We therefore were buried with Him through baptism into death, in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may walk in newness of life.

When our old view and opinion died and we realized we couldn’t achieve Zoë life by our own labor, we died to that way of life and became alive again to our original genesis.

Romans 7:6
But now, having died to what bound us, we have been released from the Law, so that we serve in the new way of the Spirit, and not in the old way of the written code.

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away. Behold, the new has come!

“The incorruptible seed of sonship is as much in every man as the seed is already in all soil, even in the desert, waiting for the rain to awaken and ignite its life!” Mirror Translation

Matt 13:44 Jesus says that the kingdom of heaven is like a treasure hidden in an agricultural field. There is more to the field than what meets the eye.

2 Cor 4:4, 7 Paul says that we have this treasure in earthen vessels? But the god of this world seeks to blind our minds through unbelief (believing a lie about our true identity.

Num 13:33 And there we saw the Nephilim (the sons of Anak, who come from the Nephilim), and we seemed to ourselves like grasshoppers, and so we seemed to them.”

When Jesus spoke of the sinner he speaks of him as the lost sheep, coin, or son. The inscription and image did not disappear fromt the coin when it was lost. The son wasn’t not a son just because he was gone.  Mankind forgot what manner of man he was by design, man is the image and likeness bearer of his Maker; this is exactly what Jesus came to reveal and redeem in us.

“We may now behold him with unveiled faces as in a mirror and be immediately transformed in our understanding into his likeness. From the glory [opinion] of the flesh to the glory [opinion] of God. Legalistic religion kept the veil in place; the proclaiming of the liberating truth of the Good News, removes the veil. We only needed to know the truth about us to be free, it was always the truth we just didn’t realize it.” Mirror Bible

Phillipaians 2:4-6 To discover your own completeness in Christ frees you to turn your attention away from yourself to others! The way Jesus saw himself is the only valid way to see yourself. His being God’s equal in form and likeness was official; his sonship did not steal the limelight from his Father? Neither did his humanity distract from the deity of God.

We can see ourselves as Daddy has always seen us, and realize it has always been his desire and will from the beginning for us to live out of that identity. That is true humility.

Daddy I pray right now over each person reading this that they can believe and receive that they are made in your glorious image. That you will continue to persuade them until they can fully receive it.  I pray today that you would show them one way that you love them.  That you would speak to their hearts and that they would be open to hearing from you. Blessings.

 

 

 

Daddy Do You Love Me?

My prayer lately has been Daddy show me how you love me, help me to know how to receive your love and what that looks like in my life.  He’s been leading me back again to studying the 23rd Psalm lately. I’ve been pondering it again with fresh eyes through the finished work of Jesus. One thing is for sure David believed in who God was, he knew God and was confident in his knowledge of Him.

The Lord is my Shepherd.

David believed that Daddy would take care of all his needs. He being a shepherd understood the role of a shepherd intimately and he fully trusted God in that role in his life.  A shepherd is responsible for the welfare of his flock. He also protects the sheep from predators.  Shepherds are responsible for tending to injuries and basic medical treatment for their flock. The shepherd makes frequent checks on all the sheep at all hours of the day and night and assist ewes in the birthing process.

God is my shepherd; he takes care of me. He protects me from predators and those things against me trying to bring forth death. He tends to my hurts and needs, my injuries and sicknesses lovingly.  He is constantly aware of what is going on with me, every inch, every detail tending to me helping me in this birthing process that is bringing forth the new life that is already in me.

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want. 

Want here is the Hebrew word chaser it means:

  • Bereaved: be deprived of a loved one through profound absence, or death
  • Be abated: die down, lessen, decrease, diminish, fade, weaken, become smaller or less intense, lessen, reduce
  • Cause to fail
  • Have Lack

David understood and believe that Daddy would provide for all his needs, he believed that he would not be deprived of God’s love or be absent from him. He believed that he would not decrease or diminish in the Shepherds tender care.  He knew that he would not fail or have lack in any way. He trusted in his Good Shepherd.

That type of trust and belief can only come when we have intimate knowledge and relationship with Daddy.  When we fully know and believe that he is a good father.

He makes me lie down…96f5f3980a5b45cf7e39ce50e268a080

This part bothered me for some reason because I was reading it as he forces me to and that to me didn’t sound like love.  When I was thinking about it I thought can you really force a sheep to lay down? Is that even possibly if it’s a big one? Why would he make me? Where is the free will in that? But then the Holy Spirit unpacked it a bit more for me and it was beautiful.  A sheep lays down when they are fully sated, or satisfied. He was showing me that his care of me, his abundance of every good thing satisfies me to that point that I am fully sated. It is then that I lie down. I lie down, but I do so because he has filled me, so in essence he makes me lay down by his filling of me. Because he has tended and cared for me so beautifully I am fully satisfied and can lay down and where does he have me lay down?

He makes me lie down in green pastures.

Green pastures are cool and refreshing rest, they are delight and provision and the very example of God’s covenant of Grace with us. I’m so full of his goodness of Grace I lay down in this cool refreshing rest fully satisfied.

I also found it interesting that sheep cannot digest all they have eaten until they law down.  It is not until I lay down in rest that I can fully digest it all.

He leads me beside the still waters

Leads: protects

Beside: to on

Still waters: are waters of rest and refreshment, comforting, quiet

He protects me and leads me to the still waters, the safe waters or refreshment and rest. I found it is interesting to note that sheep will not drink from moving waters, mainly due to instinct because if a sheep’s wool gets wet it surely will drown as it sucks up the water and makes it heavier.

He restores my soul;

Restores=turn back, return

Daddy returns my soul to the truth of my being, he brings me back from my errors.

He guides me, leads me in the paths of righteousness (safety) for His name’s sake.

He returns my soul to the truth of my original design, leading me on the path of righteousness for his Glory. I am his Glory. Not because of anything I have done, but simply because of His love and grace. He chose me before I was even born.

I am the sheep, He is the Shepherd, all I am called to do is to trust and believe in Him.  Learning to accept Daddy’s love is looking a lot like learning to trust who he says he is so in return I can trust who he says I am.  It is seeing myself as worthy to be loved, worthy to be known, worthy to be cherished, worthy to be cared for by the creator Himself, the King of Kings.  It’s stepping into the role of Daughter, Bride, Righteous. It’s beginning to see the power that is inside of me, the keys he has given me, the territory that has always been mine. Blessings.

Luke 12:32

“Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has chosen gladly to give you the kingdom.

You Will Not Abandon Me

The Joy of the Lord

I struggle, I’m human, I think it’s important to admit that so that people see the realness of my life. I have days that just stink and the lies of the enemy overcome me. I hate days like that. I hate what the enemy steals from myself and my family in those days. Yesterday was one of those days. It was tough and painful and a little scary as I encountered lies again that hadn’t come forth in a very long time.

This morning as I was encouraging people on my prophetic page, Abounding Grace, I began to think about the joy of the lord. I want that joy, continuously in my life. However, I know it’s him not I that can bring it forth; it’s a fruit of His spirit in me. The joy of the Lord is my strength and I need that strength and I trust him to get me there. There are times when I feel alone and discouraged in this journey, but Daddy is good and he knows just what I need. Today Daddy lead me to these verses to assure me that he is always there leading me to freedom. That I am not alone, that I don’t need to feel ashamed in my struggles. A lie I believed for a long time is that I couldn’t be honest about my struggles with others because they would seem as a burden.  That if I shared my struggles that they would no longer want to be my friend.  I realize that this is a lie, and I’m thankful that Daddy is leading me to freedom in this.  He is there in them with me in these struggles, freeing me.

Below are the notes on my study of these verses, I used three different Lexicons to look at the Hebrew words below. (biblehub.com) Enjoy.

Psalms 16:10-For you will not abandon my soul to Sheol; Nor will You allow Your Holy One to undergo Decay.

Abandon: Leave, forsake, loose,

Soul: living being, life, self, person

Sheol: place of separation

Will you allow: To give, put, set

Your Holy one: Kind, Pious (saint), godly man

Root: to bow the neck only in courtesy to an equal

Decay: a pit, a trap, destruction, corruption, to sink down

Psalms 16:11-You will make known to me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In your right hand there are pleasures forever.

You will make known: acknowledge, acquainted with, advise, Properly to ascertain by seeing

The path: the way

Life: quicken, revive, restore to life, to live

In Your Presence: primitive root to turn, approach, turn to

Fullness: satiety, abundance, satisfying abundance, satisfied to the full, supply with as much as or more of something than is desired or can be managed

Joy: gladness, mirth, exceedingly, joyfulness, pleasure, rejoicing

Right hand: used for blessing, used of God as his power

Pleasures: delightful, pleasant, lovely

Forever: Enduring, everlastingness, eminence, fame or recognized superiority (eminence)

My Paraphrase from my study:

For you will not leave/abandon me in the place of separation; Nor will you put/allow your saint to undergo destruction/a trap. You will show me the path to restore life; In your presence is satisfying abundance of joyfulness; In your right hand there pleasures everlasting. Psalms 16:10-11

God did not leave us in separation; he came and showed us the path to restored life with him. (Jesus) In his presence we find the abundance of joy that our souls long for to be satisfied. He is our pleasure; his righteous right hand upholds us.

Isaiah 41:10 fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold (support, help) you with my righteous (equity, prosperous) right hand.

John 15:11 These things I have spoken to you that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be full.

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We find our joy in him and him alone.

Jeremiah 15:16 Your words (to speak, speech) were found, and I ate (devoured) them, and your words (speech) became to me a joy and the delight of my heart, for I am called by your name, O LORD, God of hosts.

I just want to encourage you today that Daddy is leading you on the right path even when you feel alone or lost or going the wrong way, he is guiding you, leading you, saving you. His promise is to never leave us or forsake us. His love for us will not allow us to stay in a place of separation from him. As long as there are still lies and deception we are believing his promise to us is constant pursuit of his perfect love and truth. His words over us, about us, to us bring us freedom and joy and identity. His divine opinion of us is his glory over us and each day he is leading us into a deeper revelation of what that is in our lives. Blessings!